I’m big on meditation. It hasn’t always been this way, but these days meditation matters deeply to me. It matters because it’s important to me to maintain a balance in my mind and my spirit.
I’m a chaotic person. I’m a person who is always in motion, always running from one big idea to the next, always working, always running even when I can walk. That chaos lives inside me constantly. That chaos gives me zero to no room to breathe, if I don’t manage it.
When I was younger, “managing” it happened through drinking to quiet my mind, self destructing as a distraction mechanism. When I was younger, I had little control over the way I felt, and the way I reacted, and the way my moods would swing back and forth between happiness and loneliness.